declaration / deadly

I loved you because

I thought I had you when I traced my fingertips
and lined with love your timid cheeks,
but I suppose it wasn’t for us to be
as how it felt to have your arms around me
when I cried.

I thought you’d be here to take in my smile
as you kissed me in front of the silver moonlight,
but I reckon it wasn’t for us to be
as how it felt to have your breath beside me
while I lived.

so I stopped, but I still loved you.

alexandra

resistance

i wanted to show you all the passion
if it had been what you wanted.
i could’ve bore to watch your shoulders
bare as the night got excited.
i should not have passed saneness
to the white thought of your sight,
i must be able to forgive you
for what you have done to my mind.

i wanted you to say you want me,
i aspired for your lips.
i could not bare your perfume
promoting me to my knees.
i should have, as well, considered
you are being way too kind,
i must be able to forgive you
for what you have done to my mind.

i wanted to know the pain that made you
as you’re struggling to exist.
i could have kept your blue entirety
quietly, loosely in my fist.
i should have taken my advantage
tasting your drunken breath alive,
now i’m not able to forgive you
for what you have done to my mind.

alexandra

seasons

bending, twisting and cracking of bones
oh, the forces that attract me to you;
past times when my hand consisted of yours –
present emotional residue

sat still, thinking and reminiscing May
and your eyes like a spring’s sun.
one year’s passed and you’re away;
for me, the winter has begun

rhythmic diaries of our duet
I think it is time to turn the page
as you realise, do not forget
much alike seasons, feelings change.

alexandra